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dreamyunicornThings have been a little better. I feel a bit like a cloud has lifted. I ended up talking to my sister about how I was feeling and since then she has made an effort to spend more time with me and that has helped a lot. I think a lot of my depression was a result of isolation. I'm not as miserable anymore. Ocd is still kicking my ass though. I went out yesterday, but it didn't feel worth it. It was hard and relatively joyless.
I think I haven't been as good at exposure as I had been. I need to look at why that is. I think part of it is that I always let myself make excuses not to do it when I'm feeling tired and worn down. But there is potentially more value in learning to do it then than when I feel good. That's worth remembering. I need to examine my hesitations and get back on track.
The Tom Green show has been my new obsession. I'm having a lot of fun watching it, I wish it was easier to find the old episodes. I want to make fandom content of it but feel self conscious because there isn't really a fandom culture surrounding the show. So on tumblr it'd just be me posting gifs for an audience of myself. But that's ok I guess. I like people who just lean into their niche interests. It's not even like the show is particularly obscure. It's just not something people currently post about.
I think I haven't been as good at exposure as I had been. I need to look at why that is. I think part of it is that I always let myself make excuses not to do it when I'm feeling tired and worn down. But there is potentially more value in learning to do it then than when I feel good. That's worth remembering. I need to examine my hesitations and get back on track.
The Tom Green show has been my new obsession. I'm having a lot of fun watching it, I wish it was easier to find the old episodes. I want to make fandom content of it but feel self conscious because there isn't really a fandom culture surrounding the show. So on tumblr it'd just be me posting gifs for an audience of myself. But that's ok I guess. I like people who just lean into their niche interests. It's not even like the show is particularly obscure. It's just not something people currently post about.
